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At the end of my member season last year I wasn’t sure about coming back to be a leader.  I remember the PC always asking me when I was going turn in my application in the last two weeks.  I was hesitant to even apply because I didn’t want to settle for another season with MCC and not try to apply myself elsewhere.  I was also scared to step up into a leadership role because of my lack of confidence.  Since I can remember I’ve always taken some easy ways out and never been a leader.  I’ve been told by many that I would do great as a leader, but I never tried.  So I applied, interviewed, and was hired.  I didn’t accept it right away, I went home and really thought about it.  I thought about my previous bosses and how much they believed in me.  And then I asked myself why don’t I believe in myself as much as they do?  I figured this would be my time to finally challenge myself and become a leader.  After experiencing it I don’t regret it at all; it was one of the best experiences I have ever had.  Not only did I have fun and learn new skills, I gained a lot more confidence in my own abilities.
Yes I was nervous pretty much the whole time, but I had Jake and the support from staff.  About halfway through the season was when I was comfortable and knew that I wouldn’t want to be doing anything else at this point in my life.  We traveled across four states together like a family.  We worked together like we’ve known each other for years.  We fought, we cried, we explored, and learned from each other.  I wouldn’t want to change anything that happened this season.  At the end during our affirmation circle it really set in that I made a difference and was a great leader.  Hearing Eliza and Elena tell me that they learned their new skill set from me mad me proud.  It was a relief to hear I had an impact this season by my crew members.  I don’t think I’ll have an experience like this ever again, so I will remember it forever, and would like to thank all who believed in me.

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